After 2 Years Together…

19 January 2021

The two year anniversary of my self-publishing journey!
๐Ÿ•บ๐ŸŽญ๐Ÿ˜€๐Ÿ“š๐ŸŽ‚๐Ÿฉ

I donโ€™t remember how it all started, my first book โ€“ is it a book really? โ€“ was a collection of absurd stories posted on the blog, blended genres full of grotesque erotica, satire, sci-fi, adult humor, and surreal fiction. I remember how one day someone proposed to publish a book. Iโ€™m not sure who it was but let me say thank you. If he or she hadnโ€™t asked, I would probably never have dared because I never dreamed of becoming a writer.

In the world in which I grew up, the profession of writer didnโ€™t exist. My family was a simple working-class family in the USSR, and also poor. My mother worked two jobs: from 8am to 5pm, and then from 7pm to midnight (or later) for ten years. All she wanted for me was a good education that would give me a stable income. But look, now I am a writerโ€ฆย 

I know that my books arenโ€™t perfect. In my position, very difficult to strive for perfection:

  • I donโ€™t speak English daily
  • I never learned English grammar (self-taught)

Iโ€™m writing what I like, and the most crucial detail in the book Iโ€™m picking at the store or library is its style.
A writerโ€™s style is like a face. Too many books are faceless, even those driven by plot or character.
If someone loves to read what –ย or itโ€™s best to say “how”ย –ย Iโ€™m writing, itโ€™s good enough for me. Iโ€™m writing for the joy of it.ย Iโ€™m the author of sketches and types. I donโ€™t dig deep into psychology, perhaps, because even though itโ€™s a fascinating subject for an ordinary human being, we will never understand what makes the person tick or why they kill, or what pushes them to do unimaginable things to another creature. Iโ€™ll leave it to those who enjoy writing it. We are all different, and thereโ€™s a beauty in it.

Time after time, I say โ€œGo Awayโ€ to the story that suddenly arrives at the doorstep of my empty mind, and sometimes it is listening. I donโ€™t know why, but I feel happy when it leaves me. Iโ€™m thankful to Cadmus (the Greek God of Writing) and Thoth (the Egyptian God of wisdom, magic, and writing) that I do not encounter the heroes or parts of my stories separately; instead, I see the stories as a whole. Thatโ€™s why my heroes arenโ€™t deeply researched portraits, but only strokes on a white field of paper, the letters creating a mood or delivering a lonely note, or illogical news. They are like a postman: imagine their brief visit to your door, knock-knock, and the next second – they are gone…

๐ŸŽญ๐ŸŽญ๐ŸŽญ

Napoleon cake


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45 Responses

  1. jackcollier7 says:

    Sounds as though I’d like to read your early work <3

    • Victoria Ray NB says:

      ๐Ÿ˜ lol if you mean โ€œgrotesque eroticaโ€ – it is not really erotica, but a bit odd & steamy ๐Ÿ™‚ it has a purpose, Iโ€™d say ๐Ÿ™‚
      ๐Ÿ“š๐Ÿ”ฅ

  2. I’m surprised. I thought writing was your profession. I’ve always thought of you as a writer, a darn good writer who has taught me a lot about writing and reading, and a great reviewer of books. I am still grateful for your review of Honey Ko.
    I’ve been following you for several years but I must have missed the post where you announced your first self-published book. But congratulations on your two year journey. It’s been amazing for all your readers to see you thrive.
    I also never thought your English was anything but perfect. You must be a fast learner!
    What a life you’ve led

    • Victoria Ray NB says:

      Nooo, my education is russian literature (classics) & language + byelorussian literature (which is different language from russian; letโ€™s say like Swedish & Norwegian).

    • Victoria Ray NB says:

      Thank you! My first book was the collection of short stories (blog posts) from 2018. I deleted them, of course, when Iโ€™ve published the book ๐Ÿ˜‰ Btw I have to repost my reviews bcz Amazon deleted all 700 (for all years)๐Ÿคจ๐Ÿ™€๐Ÿฅธ

      And 2 years of writing โœ๏ธ struggle & fun – but I liked it ๐Ÿ™‚

  3. masercot says:

    You can derive more philosophy from a novel than from a thousand philosophy books.

    • Victoria Ray NB says:

      Yep ๐Ÿ‘ but I love philosophical ๐Ÿง books. Iโ€™ll read anything, tho – variety is important ๐Ÿง๐Ÿ˜€

  4. nickreeves says:

    Wonderful, Victoria!
    May I ask…’Napoleon cake’?
    It looks utterly delicious!
    Any clues as to why it is named so?
    x

    • Victoria Ray NB says:

      Thank you ๐Ÿ˜Š & yes, Napoleon cake ๐Ÿฐ, I love it haha
      I think it was named so bcz cooked for N. Bonaparte during some celebrations ๐ŸŽ‰

    • Victoria Ray NB says:

      So… itโ€™s very old recipe ๐Ÿ˜…

  5. librepaley says:

    Happy anniversary! ๐ŸŽ‚It’s a strange world, but online publishing gives writers with no hope of book deals objectives around publishing. Without these, I think fewer of us would complete a fully edited work.

    • Victoria Ray NB says:

      Thank you ๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ“š
      I think itโ€™s fun we can publish everything we want – like literary …๐Ÿ˜‚ of course, because of the crazy flow of writers in XXI – the quality is an issue (sometimes, thx god not always ๐Ÿ˜…), but anyway… if a person want to publish a book – thereโ€™re a lot of possibilities now ๐Ÿ™‚ & itโ€™s great ๐Ÿ‘

      About book deals – the best thing about it => the money… but then we have to write something we probably donโ€™t want (happens often๐Ÿ˜…) so… itโ€™s โ€ขdouble edged swordโ€ข ๐Ÿคจ๐Ÿง

      • librepaley says:

        Absolutely. Think people used to see it as look for an agent and deal vs take the self-publishing route. But now there are examples of successful self-publishers later offered deals. Still rare, but…

      • Victoria Ray NB says:

        Yes, true :))

        Hm, whatโ€™s best: being poor & free OR being rich & dependent on…

        Any chosen road is suffering ๐Ÿ™‚

  6. You got me thinking time for tea and cake – and maybe read a bit of Nabokov (got that book you recommended) – more likely take my Kindle out and take another dip into your ‘Absurd’.

    • Victoria Ray NB says:

      Ah, you got the so called โ€œheavy readingโ€… – Nabokovโ€™s lectures! Great ๐Ÿ‘ he was a strange & difficult personality, but absolutely great at seeing โ€œnovelโ€, analyzing it & of course, writing ๐Ÿ™‚
      Iโ€™m not always agreeing with him, but his style of writing is one of a kind, recognizable & truly excellent…

      Tea ๐Ÿซ– & cake ๐ŸŽ‚ = is a #must during winter โ„๏ธ

  7. George F. says:

    Thanks for getting personal…

    • Victoria Ray NB says:

      Hey ๐Ÿ™‚ howโ€™s 2021 (January) going? I donโ€™t see any new posts on ur page…

      • George F. says:

        In a withdrawal/meditative mode currently, not producing or “putting out…” But greatly appreciate you asking.

  8. Victoria, I remember reading you from the time when you were “Ray not Bradbury” and your posts were/are quirky, full of humour and philosophical too!
    I have learnt so much from you! Here’s to many more books! ๐Ÿฅ‚๐Ÿ“š๐Ÿ’™
    (Btw, that cake looks scrumptious!)

  9. Well I guess I better give thanks to Cadmus and Thoth too! As long as you’re having fun keep writing and publishing ๐Ÿ™‚ I hope to try the self-publish thing before the year is over. We’ll see ๐Ÿ™‚

  10. You certainly have your own style Victoria Ray, which is different and that makes your writing very attractive. You seem to be able to take on any subject and create a crazy tale or explore the deepest thoughts that humans can conjure up. Keep it up and don’t ever change.

    • Victoria Ray NB says:

      Tแ•ผแ—ฉแ‘ŽK YOแ‘Œ แ”•O แ—ฐแ‘Œแ‘•แ•ผ!! ๐Ÿ’œ๐Ÿ“š

  11. Naya says:

    Wow congratulations ๐Ÿฅณ Keep on going!

  12. You have an amazing mind, VR. You sponge things up and then turn them into terrific stories. The Napoleon looks terrific. Haven’t had some in quite a while. Thanks for sharing a bit of your story.

    • Victoria Ray NB says:

      Iโ€™m going โ€œhealthyโ€… starting from today!! Napoleon was yesterday ๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ™ƒ

      & thank you ๐Ÿ˜Š๐Ÿ’œ๐Ÿซ–๐Ÿ“š

  13. Sorryless says:

    You’re the best kind of writer. You let everything come into play when you write. No boundaries. That’s the only way to go.

    • Victoria Ray NB says:

      Thank you!! ๐Ÿ˜ƒ๐Ÿ’œโ„๏ธ๐Ÿ•๐Ÿ“š๐Ÿซ–

  14. I’d say congratulations are in order, Ray. Not only for the two year’s journey, but for having the guts to write in a language not your native tongue. That takes real guts.

  15. Simon says:

    I think your journey has only just begun… keep it up ๐Ÿ™‚

  16. kinkyacres says:

    Ray, how much influence does the ‘content’ of the saucer in the picture have on your imagination?

  17. Your are a great example of what a woman can accomplish. Your overcame adversity and pushed beyond your limits. Bravo.

    Hope you are well lovely lady. ๐ŸŒน

  18. You have the most amazing writing talent which you let flow. So many great journeys ahead.

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