Yes, I know, you are a Chronic Depression-ist and that’s why you are sticking to the truth you believe in => there’s no particular reason for my ‘special’ depression. Or there’s ‘very special’ reason for that. In any case, you are lucky today, because I’m going to show you “how to kill your ‘terroristic mind”. You can write your opinions (if you have any) in the comments below. Please, do not start it with “I’ve been depressed already 155 years and I still don’t know how to deal with it…and you are soooooo-soooooo wrong” (I know you want lol).
I asked my grandma: have you ever been depressed? She is very old, over 80. She didn’t get it. So I’ve tried to explain it. “No,- she said,- I never been”. Even after my explanation she was not so sure ‘What is it for the monster – Depression’. Take a note.
About me. The first time I’ve heard the word “depression” – in Europe. Europe is a very depressed ‘animal’. I can’t imagine I could come to the doctor in Russia and tell him: “I feel sooo depressed. What to do?”…but it is very ‘welcome’ here.
Here’s Your Food of The Day and something to reflect about:
1. You are trying to convince yourself -> you are anti-social. Ok, you are…You are scared of the silence and you hate too much noise. But does it mean that you have ‘to draw’ in each corner of your mind the sketch of: ‘I am socially awkward. People sucks. Nobody understands me/my creativity’? Yes, WE DON’T. And probably we NEVER WILL. Every man around you has his own ‘social’ sorrows. And the world know nothing about them. And the world DOESN’T care to know. But it doesnt mean we are all “anti-social”. Your sadness is your own choice… Your ‘anti-social behaviour’ is your own choice. Stop to be a crow. Be a nightingale.
2. Too much TIME. Too much THINKING. “The time is the bitch.” You’ve got too much time to think about doing things that never will be done…too much time sitting around and biting your own elbows – “why, oh why life is so hard.”
What to do? “Out on the field – with arse up!” – I’d say. But because you are sssooo tender creature:
Step #1: Fill up your Time right
Step #2: Do not over-activate yourself.
Step #3: Do not dig too deep inside of your own self.
#IMPORTANT: Too much thinking = Too big problems.
We are dying from overthinking. We are slowly killing ourselves by thinking about everything. Think. Think. Think. You can never trust the human mind anyway. Its a death trap. Anthony Hopkins
4. Laziness. I do not mean sitting on the couch watching Netflix on Sunday evening. I mean your enjoyment of enjoying of doing nothing (plus add here: the planning of doing nothing). It is kinda ‘The Whip’ of Our Generation. Its difficult to escape. I’m struggling every day. I do not stress over it tho. But I do not cuddle with it as well. Find “The Gold Middle”. Stick to it.
5. Superior or Not? You believe you are very special, almost superior and nobody (ah, so bad people, mad world etc) do not see that/ do not appreciate that/do not understand that. You deserve much more. No doubt, buddy. Here I’d advice you to get back to number 3 and re-read it again, because seems to me you have plenty of the time for that…
6. You define things/or feelings wrong. You are too vulnerable. Yes, me too. Welcome to the world of ‘vulnerable’ people. You are one of us! And your vulnerability + ours vulnerability = make us stronger. Accept yourself. Show yourself. Understand: To be alive is to be vulnerable. This is NOT a reason to feel depressed, but only to be happy, creative and new…
7. Death. You are probably telling yourself: “We all will die, and none of what we do matters. So, why bother to try?” BUT I’m telling you: You can have everything you want. Maybe not at once. Maybe not today. And no, not tomorrow. Oh, OK – maybe never 🙂 But still…you can do the best of the worst. You can find that you’re able to start new page, see people with a different point of view, feel something you never felt before and in case of fail – start all over again. And, hey…here will come the most important message: you can always find the time to tell yourself “I’m the Depressed One”…so don’t worry about it. Takes 1 sec. Haha
Say to yourself – what you really are, how you want to live, what you want to do. Loud. Make it your mantra. Because usually people only hear what they want to hear. So say it. Many times. R-E-P-E-A-T! Until you’ll get there. Until you’ll transform your wall into a door.
To think too much is a disease. Dostoyevsky.
Monday – Drop your Ego!
Tuesday – Luke
Wednesday – A play: Dalia or Dalai
Thursday and Friday – probably a break. We all need a rest from me 🙂
Saturday/or Sunday – Behind the Doors and Blue People
Living in Sweden. Happy and kind. Russian and #badgram English. Coffee and Tea. Dogs. Coding haha. Web design. Social Media. Fun. Health... everything day by day :)
Пишу на русском и на английском.